In Memory of my baby boy!!!

Ever since I found out that we are having a baby boy I can not help but to reflect upon my little Raggy Birkeland. I know I haven't mentioned him on our family blog, but most of you know he was our first little boy that was just too sick to endure this life. I remember when I finally got pregnant again with Emmi we were so surprised when we found out it was a girl. We thought for sure it was a boy and that we would be able to have a little boy come back to us to fill that empty void we felt. But, of course we didn't care we just wanted to take home a healthy strong baby. Our dream did come true.

For the past 3 1/2 years I have kept this huge storage bin of all of Raggy's clothes that I had bought while I was pregnant. Yes, my mom and I went crazy and shopped and shopped for this little boy. But, when things went rotten I wanted to take them all back, or give them away. Seeing them only reminded me of what I didn't have and all the pain we had gone through. I didn't care about the stupid clothes, I just wanted my baby boy. So, for all these years this bin of clothing got stuck in my mom's basement.

On New Years Day we spent the day at my mom's. My mom made mention of the clothes, which literally I think I had blocked from my memory for coping sake. We brought the huge bin up from the basement and went through all of it and separted all of it into sizes. I never thought in a million years that I would be able to put those clothes on a baby of mine. We are so happy for this baby boy. I feel like it is an answer to our prayers from years ago. It finally has been granted. This new little boy appears perfect, and all we can do now is pray that my body can keep him in until he is ready to come healthy and strong.