To put it blatent and direct.......Life has been so freaking HARD!
First, my back pain is at the top of my list of why life sucks! It has gotten so bad I had to stop all exercise and just let my body rest and stay chewy. Pain has always been the reason for stopping exercise programs. I am so sick of it. Good news is that I found a certain ridiculous diet that helps the pain. Such a long story I will save you all the details. But, I am getting so super depressed that I pretty much can't eat anything I enjoy without the consequence of pain.
Second, I feel like a failure as a mom. I have about the most strong willed 2 year old on the face of this planet. If any of you out there can relate I am so sorry. She is so stinking stubborn and relentless. I am completely sleep deprived and I feel my patience running thin. I am always so ornery and mean. I feel like I need a shrink or someone to tell me it gets better and that she won't be the end of me. Brian and I are constantly saying silent prayers for help to know how to get through to her. There is a fight with EVERYTHING. Dang....we are at our ends rope. Help!!!
On a more light note.........a friend of mine emailed me a picture of Little Debbie because he said it reminded him of Emmi. It put a little smile on my face!
Update on my beloved little Jack, Jackers, Jack Bird, Jacky.....
He is 5 months old now and growing up before our eyes. Funny how that happens!
Things he is up to doing!
- rolling all over
- reaches and grabs for anything in sight with his amazingly LONG arms!
- giggles, screams, and squeals
- still spits up on command
- not a binky man AT ALL
- sleeps on his tummy for naps. back for night
- adores his big sister even though she's rough
- can sit up with a little bit of support
- total mama's boy
6 comments:
Oh Angie I'm sorry there is nothing worse than back pain! Let me tell you..I have been dealing with Owen being like Emmi is now since he was 18 months..and I have lost my temper with him way too often so I just try to be super patient now but still he is beyond difficult! I cut out a lot of sugar as well and believe it or not have seen some improvement on behavior but who knows. I cant believe how big Jack is!! Those gigantic blue eyes..so cute!If there is anything I can do..call me...even if its taking you to dinner or movie without children.
hang in ther ang! i remember when ava was born thinking- I can't do this! I am not meant to be a mom, etc... but it does get better. I have a similar little girl- Ava is 18 months, but she tests my patience every minute. She is my little sassy bug, so if you have any advice Id love it. Your doing great Im sure!
ANG! I can so relate. At least to the Emmi pain. From the moment Sarah was 6 months until she turned 4, life was hell. Hence, the huge space between her and this next baby. I wanted to be DONE. I couldn't hack it. She tested and tried me on everything from bathing to simple meals. And she still does occassionally, but things are much much more enjoyable now. I enjoy her to pieces every day now. I never thought it would get better back in the day, but it does. I promise. In the meantime, though, I would send her away to boarding school. Somewhere in the Alps maybe? Esp since you can't eat chocolate to comfort you. (It was those years that i gained about 30 pounds from stress!!) I'm so so sorry about the back pain! How stinking miserable. Love you!! Thinking of you!
I too know what it can feel like to have a hard headed child! Kamri is so strong willed. There are days that I just don't know how to deal with her. Everyone tells me that is a good thing. Because if I can teach her the gospel and she gains a testimony, she will be immovable and a strong woman! That is what drives me and, then I realize I am blessed to have such a stubborn child. So, I guess, learning to direct it in a positive way is the answer, not sure if I have figured it all out though, but that sometimes makes me feel better! Hang in there! Sorry about your back pain, that really sucks!
Oh man, Jack's eyes. What a beautiful child just like Emmi.
You are not a failure as a mom. You have a rough job. It's not easy. Hang in there.
that is SUCH an adorable picture of Jack. He has beautiful eyes.
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